Today's the day... And it felt nice.
There is always this melancholy that lingers particularly strong for this day; from the doubts the day earlier, and just the bad history I have towards this day...
But, it felt nice. It felt nice to reconcile with today, how little I could salvage out of the years of wreckage it dragged behind.
I'm still very much stuck in the past - and I might not let it go any time after today, at least not until I can be proud of myself; until I can make my past self proud, until I can make my self some time far ahead proud... until I can admit to myself, I am proud of what I have done.
It'll take some time, but hopefully I'll get there. With what little progress I'll make, maybe I can reconcile with myself.
This is just a little setimental rambling. So I offer up a Birthday Poster with two of my Avatars; Laurel and Rabbit.
They hold a special place to me as representation of my childhood and early teen years, and my late teen and years onwards.
Other than that, I'm hoping to update sometime soon, and make better progress for this site and my projects, and I hope you'll stick around a bit to see them.
- Even if I'm not good at managing myself, exhibit A with this post uploaded minutes after the day is over.
But thank you, for reading til the end.
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